I'm bad at this

I knew I would be bad at this!!!!! But the pure joy of having Gil home turned into being very overwhelming. Feeling a little better now. The Track is crazy busy right now and George is working a lot!!!!! He is having to do a lot of evening shift (which is 4 to close) right in a row. Thank God for Erin or I might go crazy. Trying to get Andy, Ben, and Gil cared for by myself keeps me on my and I just pray when I'm by myself that Erin doesn't become drama queen cause that usually puts me over the edge!!!! These days are when I look forward to going back to work!!!! Maybe the Lord will bless George with a promotion though, and I can only have to work PT, cause most days I wonder how I could possibly go back to work!!!!!! Though I will say that the Track has been really good to George, though I think he deserves it, he's such a hard worker and very loyal!!!!!!!!

Cat came to see me today and I got to meet Maylin. She is 3 weeks younger then Gil. Crazy!!! It's nice to have a friend that has kids the same age (except she has one in between too, don't know how she does it!!!!!!!!). Hopefully she can visit longer the next time. Praise God she has family in the area so we have the opportunity to see each other!!!!!

Going to the creek tomorrow with Mom and Dad, George has to work. So this might be interesting. They are bring the food or I might have went crazy since I just spent 30 minutes just packing chairs and lifejackets!!!!!

Praise God that the van just has a minor problem with it. I've been sick at my stomach for a week about it!!!!! I thought it was going to be the transmission!!!!!!!!

Very excited for next weekend!!! George and I are going to stay at the Keeter Center for the weekend to celebrate mom and dad day and for my birthday!!! Very excited. Mom and dad and Tina are watching the boys and we will only be 2.5 miles away, so I think I'll be ok leaving Gil. But I think the excitement of sleeping will out way me being anxious about it!!!!!

Anyways that is a quick update!!!!!!!!

God is bigger then us

Found out tonight that a dear friend of mine has cancer and is also my office manager at work. My heart goes out to her and her family. It instantly brought back memories of Kris passing. But one thing I've learned this year is that God performs miracles!!!!

Work out

So my thought "20 minute workout, no problem" Jillian kicked my but!!!!!!!!!! I did her 30 day shred on the beginning level and I thought I was going to pass out!!!! Very excited to see what happens after doing it for a few weeks!!!!!

Gilbert

Soooo......We spent 104 days in the NICU. Before this I didn't even know what it stood for (Neonatal Intensive Care unit)!!!! It was the hardest 104 days I ever known and hope I don't ever experience again.

When you dream about having a baby your whole life, you don't dream about being in the NICU, and you don't dream about delivering 12 weeks early. I missed soooo many moments with Gilbert, most of them I'm sure I will never know I missed. I had to share him with a zillion other women that acted as his care giver. Interesting that I really didn't think about these things until I was out of there. When I was there I was sooo wrapped up in making sure he was getting the best care he could get!!!!

All of this to say, one of the things that has hurt me the most, was not being able to breastfeed. Last night I talked to George that I was going to stop trying and stop pumping (b/c it's very time consuming, esp. when I have to do it when Gil is sleeping or calm enough for me to put him down). George and I agreed to try until Friday and then go from there, then today (actually the first day it has been just Gil and I) he held on for 15 minutes on both sides. God is Good!!!! Even if it might not last (my production is way down) a few minutes is all I have been praying for, just to have a few of those moments back I didn't get!!!!

A new Thing

So I've decided to try my hand at a blog. We will see if I have time for it. Have been wanting to do it for a while now.

Just tried to download a template. I wasn't successful!!!!

I'm having a blast being home with Gilbert!!! Thought I would post a pic from today and I will post more later, since I just spent his nap trying to download a new template :-)